El Cambio

The world was a lot quieter. The sun was already down. There were no more movies to watch,there was no more work to do.Your behavior is under scrutiny again. It was that time. The time, grief starts to deepen. It was one night made for torture and for savoring of loneliness. Blissful and a familiar night. "I wish I was more productive. I wish the universe was kinder to me. I wish I didn't say that. I wish I wasn't like this. I wish I could get a job soon to help my family. I wish I would get married soon. I wish I had more money. I wish I didn't have this illness".

It was such a night, where your brain was getting brutish again. The past is full of contrition and the future full of agitation. "You see, there are no pretty pink flowers in the woods at night".

You hate 6ams. It's that time again. "Drink a lot of water, exercise and be productive to get your

life in order" time of the day. Can we ever get our lives in order? Is there such a thing as fragile and as fickle as this life? Life happens to you, you don't happen to life.You drink water because your body needs it, you exercise because your body needs it. You got divorced because you were married, you're jobless because you were employed. As Immanuel Kant puts it, "only a

rational being has the capacity to act in accordance with the representation of laws, that is, in accordance with principles". In both the Critique of Practical Reason and Religion within the Boundaries of Mere Reason, the meaning of life is the pursuit of the highest good.

If we take a look at Hegel's rule of Hegelianism, he talks of his three styled stages of

in itself (An-sich)

out of itself (Anderssein)

in and for itself (An-und-für-sich).

He talks of In logic – which, according to him, is really metaphysic – we have to deal with the process of development applied to reality in its most abstract form. According to Hegel, in logic, we deal in concepts robbed of their empirical content: in logic we are discussing the process in a vacuum, so to speak.

There's a certain bad habit you feel bad about. You want to get rid of it. It surrounds your other beautiful aspects of life, like thorns on roses. You drink alcohol, smoke weed, hate people to somehow substitute for the love and affection that you need. They tell you to be consistent if you want to break your bad habits. "Get rid of them to create space for better things". How better is better? What's the cost for better things? How subjective is it? What does it take to maintain new better things? New bad habits? 

"People who self-handicap purposely shoot themselves in the foot in order to protect themselves from having to confront their possible shortcomings. Many self-handicapping behaviors are those small, subtle bad habits like being late, gossiping, micromanaging, behaving passive-aggressively, or being a perfectionist. We may not recognize these self-defeating--and self-handicapping--traits for what they are. Or we may even wrongly perceive them as strengths. But in truth, they often get in the way of us blooming".

Everything you're trying to escape will eventually find you in your sleep. If all of our sins, bad habits, and poor choices were permanently inked into our skin like tattoos, we would all dress quite modestly.

"You can do the right thing that seems wrong to others, or the wrong thing that seems right, and its actually puerile to await recommendation when what you are about to do doesn't concerns anyone"